“When the caterpillar thought the world was over, it became a butterfly.” – Proverb
This life that we live can sometimes be a surprising one. You think you have everything figured out then BAM, a pleasant surprise is waiting for you just around the corner. It’s time to see that some ends are actually new beginnings and it makes the world that much more beautiful 
…I haven’t written in a while. If you don’t already know, WordPress has this graph that shows how many visitors your blog has had in the past and it’s interesting to see I’ve had at least one visitor a day. Even an influx of eight a few days ago. I wonder who these people are… Enough of that. Onto the blog!
“Life isn’t about finding yourself. It’s about creating yourself.” – George Bernard Shaw
Life is pretty crazy to say the least. When it’s like a roller coaster, I would wish that it was a stroll in the park and vice versa. Will I ever be able to find that happy medium? I suppose I will find out in due time. For a while now, I’ve been trying to find my identity. Who am I, what am I doing here, what is my purpose? All common questions I would ask myself every now and again. After some careful evaluation, I found that I didn’t like who I was, I didn’t like where I was, and I still had no idea as to what my purpose in this roller coaster of a life was. Instead of wallowing in depression, I have decided to take the advice of a very wise person. This person told me that “there is no point in looking down on yourself; anything is possible if you believe in yourself. All you have to do is keep your head up and keep working hard.” Those simple statements really hit home for me, hence the quote above. For a very long time, I was looking to find out who I was, staying the same person throughout the whole journey and not realizing that I was deteriorating as a person and becoming someone that I did not want to be. I want to be able to create myself into someone that I love and that I can be proud of, and not let anyone dictate how I live my life by putting labels on me. It’s time to make some changes in my life and I hope that they are all for the better.
I also took some advice from the Bible. Luke 12:22-34. Jesus tells us not to worry. He says that even the birds and the flowers are taken care of by God and that we, His precious children will also be taken care of as well. I want to quit worrying, put in my best effort, and let God take care of the rest.
On a lighter note, I have decided to take on a project. It’s going to take about two months and hopefully I will reap the full benefits. Please encourage me and keep me in your thoughts. I promise that it will amaze you!!
“When you’re going through hell, keep going.” – Winston Churchhill
This past summer has been chaotically eventful to say the least. I learned a lot about myself, about people, and about life. There were times where I wanted to throw in the towel after some of the things that were thrown at me, but I was able to persevere thanks to a few close people around me.
Tomorrow, the last year of my undergraduate college education begins. I need eight credits to graduate, both of which are required History classes. Whatever “hell” life throws at me, I want to be able to move forward with my life and succeed in my goals. Hopefully, I can say in June that I gave my best effort and realize all the goals that I have set for this next academic year. Please pray for me. Thank you
Again with the old habits!! Oh, how can I break away from thee?
While I was driving to Orange to get my haircut, I suddenly realized what my problem with life is. I like having instant gratification! But can you blame a poor fella? I mean, in today’s world, everything has to be instant! Finding information on the internet, travels and communication, a rookie’s ability to immediately contribute in the NFL, attempting to turn around a crashing economy in a few months, the expectations are endless!
I tend to follow that type of mentality. I have my eye on the prize, but I don’t want to deal with the in-betweens. I now know that I need to keep myself grounded and that I need to keep up with the little things in order to conquer the big things. Is anyone willing to help me stay on the right path?
In other thoughts, the new NFL season starts in exactly 14 minutes from now! I know that the Raiders can turn it around this season! ARE YOU READY FOR SOME FOOTBALL?? GO RAIDERS!!!
I swear that I’ve written about this very topic at least once in my past blogs, but old habits sure die hard. For the last 7 weeks, I have been taking Organic Chemistry at La Sierra University, and let me tell you that it is NOT going as planned. I have so many excuses that I can use, poor time management, unsure financial situations, hot weather, cars breaking down, etc etc, but in the end, all these things boil down to a pitiful excuse that should have been ignored or taken care of. I mean, there is a homeless high school kid that got into Harvard for goodness sakes!
It’s time to stop making excuses. I am not 18 anymore and I cannot afford to waste anymore resources. Hopefully this will be the last time I will have to learn things the hard way. Now back to hitting the books!
…felt like you were walking through a muddy swamp? I keep trying to look for dry solid ground, but I’m stuck in the middle, tirelessly pulling one leg up after the other. I had so much confidence and promise at the beginning of the year, and actually did quite well. But as time passed on, one thing after the other would add its weight making my journey through the swamp even more difficult that it already was. I won’t go into the details but I wonder if that’s what differentiates the strong from the weak. How can I be a stronger person? and not give into my weakness so easily? I’m not saying everything in my life is weighing me down, somethings and some people (more actually one person) actually keep me afloat and occasionally help pull me through but do you understand what I mean? Maybe it’s just because finals are about to start and I’ve yet again thrown myself into a deep, ass, hole of cramming despair.
lessons that I learned this year:
- know my limitations, but at the same time, not sell myself short
- be wiser with the little time that I have
- keep myself in check when it comes to health
- be understanding and compassionate
I should get off my ass and implement these lessons into my life sooner rather than later.
something to vent about…
is it just me or are southern California drivers getting worse? I almost got hit in the past two days, both times when I had the right of way, and I’m sure I’ve almost been hit on a few other occasions in the past few weeks. I wonder…
After a three day weekend, one should feel refreshed and rejuvenated from the busy bustling and hustling of daily life right? WRONG!
On the first day back, I have classes from 8am to 11am, Biology lab from 12pm to 1:30pm (we ended early thankfully), then Religion class from 6-10pm. I haven’t even started my Religion class but I’m already burnt out.
Maybe it’s this hell like heat here in Riverside, CA. I have officially decided that I’d rather be cold than hot because when you’re cold, you’re just miserable and it’s possible to warm up just about wherever you are. In heat, you’re miserable AND super annoyed, and a cool air-conditioned student center is not always available to bring your temperature down.
On top of the heat, it’s bad enough that I feel completely burnt out from school. I feel as if I’m working as hard as I can but the results just don’t come out. Maybe I should start taking my own advice and not follow “Do as I say, not as I do”.
Taking 18 credits each quarter this past year seems to be an obviously huge mistake. With each passing day, my energy, emotion, and psyche in general is slowly draining and I feel as if I’m running on empty. Just need to get through this next week and a half… please pray for me.
Maybe a healthy rant will help pick up my day
The DMV. Is there any need to say more? Let me start out by saying that I ABSOLUTELY HATE THE DMV!!!! Where to begin? Long lines, irate workers, endless fees, etc, etc, etc. I have been to the DMV a total of 3 times now, and now I must go back for a fourth, just to register my car to California. I wish I could continue this rant, but I seem to have a hard time thinking of what to write with no gas in the tank. I think… I’ll leave my entry at this for today.
All I ask for is that someone prays for me to get through these next few weeks. June 12-21st… how I long for thee…
Hello internet. It has been a while since I wrote and let the world know my inner feelings, thoughts, and ideas. Although today’s post won’t be intellectually stimulating, I’m going to ease myself back into the blogging world, so please be understanding
So between school and the love of my life, I have very little time to do anything else. However, this weekend, I was able to take care of some loose ends that I have been wanting to for a while. The first thing I was able to do was to add a little decoration to my room. For those of you that don’t know, I am a huge Oakland Raiders fan. I bought two jersey hangers and and a banner flag from ebay. Notice how the banner says Los Angeles instead of Oakland. When I saw it, I had to get it no matter what
along with the decorating, I finally fixed my leaky toilet and changed the oil in my car. Quite the handyman wouldn’t you say?
and for my final weekend project, Mac OS X. I recently purchased a Lenovo S10e and installed OS X onto it. I am actually typing this entry on it at this very moment. I would have to say that this has been one of the best purchases I have made in my life. If you would like to do something like this, ask me and I’ll guide you in the right direction.
That’s all for now folks so until next time… enjoy the pics!
This is something that I have been contemplating for a couple months now. Our economy is fucked to say the least. It’s not “the Great Depression pt. 2″, but it could well be getting there. I find it sick that because of government deregulation, corrupt people were able to take advantage and bring the “great nation” of the United States to its knees and basically make our country an utter embarrassment.
Even with the whole economic crisis going on, top CEO’s still make millions of dollars. That link shows an example in the worst way because that CEO only worked 3 weeks and is eligible for $18 million in signing bonuses. How sick is that?
When will corruption end? I know that moving to Canada isn’t the smartest option because no matter where I go, I will never be able to escape corrupt people… but at least I’ll have clean air and great and affordable healthcare if I do choose to move.
